There and Here

I've been home almost 4 months, big whoop-de-do. I drive my Honda civic to Target and obey traffic rules. Speak to people in English at hamburger places. Meet my friends to watch The Office and Grey's Anatomy on Thursday nights. Have pale skin again, and complain about the freezing rain...

Wait. What did I use to do?

Drove my Honda wave to Tesco and obeyed traffic rules (they were just different). Spoke to my friends in English and went out for egg breakfasts. Watched The Office and Grey's Anatomy with my friends (thanks to the night bazaar dvds). Had tan skin and complained that I sweated through most of my clothes.

So, maybe my life really isn't that different.

Except. I got to go to my brother's 20th birthday dinner on a Wednesday night with my family. Go shopping and have dinner with my siblings over the weekend. Squeeze baby Abe. Have fun weekends in Chicago with my boyfriend, walking down Michigan Avenue. Attend "month days" with my friends from college. Going to an IU homecoming football game. Looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas with my family. Go on walks with the fall leaves changing color. All things that I couldn't do in Thailand and longed for, and hated missing out on.

But, there are spots in my heart that can't be filled being back here.

Eating dinner and having bible study with my great group of girl friends. Sitting at the "fun" table during work meetings, and having colleagues that were actual friends. Hopping on a train or plane to exotic beaches. Trekking with elephants in jungles. Eating fresh Thai food and fruit every day for lunch. Going to the pool with Kelly on Saturdays. Having coffee with Katie at Ginger. Eating Brooke's homemade goodies at her house. Working out with Kelly Newton...

I felt like I was missing things while I was there, and feel like I am missing things while I am home. Things were also amazing while I was there, and things are also amazing while I am home. I wonder if life will ever just be in one place again...